It is no secret to you guys that over the last year I’ve taken a few breaks from my blog because life just got to be too much. When I started my blog almost three years ago I had a flexible schedule that allowed me to shoot new outfits weekly and write blog posts daily. This past semester I worked just under 30 hours a week and took 19 hours worth of classes. That left me only Saturday and Sunday to even breathe. Because of this I really put my blog and my Instagram on the back burner. It wasn’t necessarily what I wanted to do, but it was what I had to do. I am two semesters away from graduating college and I want to graduate with grades that I am proud of so I poured my heart and soul into my studies this semester.
I was sad to push my blog to the back, blogging was something I enjoyed doing from the get-go, even when I am shooting outfits in 100-degree heat, it was still fun. But, I was beginning to push myself to a place that made it not so enjoyable anymore, it became a chore for me. I joined different engagement groups where I felt as though I was just commenting on people’s posts to get my own more engagement and it was pushing me to a point that I didn’t like posting. I knew that every time I posted if I wanted anyone to really see it I had to go send it within the group to help it get the engagement that it needed to become successful. That’s where I began to fall into the number game. I was seeing other people grow so quickly and I wasn’t. I began to feel very insecure about blogging and about myself. I have never been a victim of the comparison game but lately, it’s been hitting me pretty hard. I strayed away from Instagram completely because I felt as though I just couldn’t be happy with who I was or where I was in the blogging world.
All of that to say, those things were brought on by myself but, they took me a while to realize. What is important about all of this is that I did realize it all and that I am doing something about it. I dropped out of my engagement groups so that Instagram no longer feels like a chore. I am working on making real-time photos of my outfits rather than always planning a large photoshoot so that I don't feel overwhelmed. I am working on trying to stick to a schedule and remembering that not everything has to look perfect for it to be post-worthy. It has taken me a long time to get where I am today with my feelings on all of this. Stories used to be my favorite thing and over the last few months, I have disappeared from them. It was due to the fact that I did not want to come on faking a happy face when I wasn’t happy with how my blog was going. Now that I have had the time to figure everything out and I have some time off from school I am ready to jump in. Maybe not jump in head first, but we’re getting there.
Thank you to all of you who took time out of your day to read this. I hope that it helps you in some way or another and to know that it’s okay to step back from something, no matter how much you love it, to work on yourself. I look forward to bringing you guys new and exciting content in the new year.
I love you all.
Love,
